Who am I? Nobody important, nobody famous. I’m not anyone you’d notice on the street. I am just another person saved by the grace of God. I was a real dredge at one time, especially inside but now thanks to God’s love and mercy, I’m His child. I do not deserve my salvation nor did I earn it. (For by grace are ye saved through faith and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God. Ephesians 2:8 Authorized King James Version.)
Christ Jesus paid for it all at the cross on Calvary some 2,000 years ago. You ask, do I really believe that? Yes, indeed! My eternal life depends upon it. But I also believe because I know. You ask, how can I know. . . Well for starters, faith. But also I began looking for Him at a young age. (I believe this came from Him and He inspired me to go looking. I can always trace everything back to Him). Perhaps you can remember the first times you began wondering or thinking about God? You can be sure it always comes from Him.
Anyway, I was about ten or so and I asked Him if He was there. I won’t tell you the whole scenario but he made it clear, yes He was really there. That was a big deal. You see I’d heard people talk about Him at church but that was not good enough for me. I had to know, to really know. So I just asked Him.
Simple, isn’t it? Yes, it is. I’m not sure why some of the Christians complicate things sometimes or why it is even perceived that way but everything I’ve known about God or trusted in Him about, comes from a child-like place. When I need to ask something, I just ask. I pray to Him in faith believing. Is it always that easy, the faith part? No, it is not sometimes. There are times, my mind fights with me on things. I have learned to put the the Word of God (the Holy Bible) first over everything including what’s rolling through my mind or beating in my very heart.The Word of God says when you read it that it strengthens your faith. ( So then faith cometh by hearing, and hearing by the word of God. Romans 10:17 AKJV)
I’m 33 years old and it’s taken a long time to learn some of this stuff but I can say that I don’t even trust my own heart. I know that it wants and acts contrary to God and thankfully, the Holy Spirit (also a gift from God) can help in these matters. But here I’m wandering a bit off down the road, I will get back to the beginning!
You might think, wow, after she had that encounter with God, she really was a big time believer! I actually went right back to life and my wants and needs. Unfortunately, we did not attend a church that talked much about reading the Bible or the Holy Spirit. I didn’t have much for spiritual armor and my own wants even as young girl took over. Life is all about wants. Just turn on the TV and it’s practically shoved into your eyeballs!
My childhood past includes different types of abuse. Sexual, mental and physical. My mother left me around age 2 so she could go live her life and I was left with my grandparents (God bless them!) and my sometimes Dad, who worked and ran around a lot. My dad remarried a troubled woman and life from there until I was almost 16 was not very good. I ran away from home once, got in trouble several times over silly things, food was sometimes withheld, she suffered from some type of eating disorder ( and later in life I suffered eating problems for quite a while until the Lord delivered me from it)so yes, it was not a good time for me.
And I came out of the situation after my dad moved, and divorced the woman and I was back again at my grandparents. I was 16 years old and very angry. It took me a while to be able to forgive but thanks to God I could. He even helps you forgive! (Matthew 7:7 Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you:)
Years passed by. I got married, was pregnant before I was married. Had a beautiful daughter too. She is wonderful and a reminder to me of how great God is. Then I got divorced, married again, divorced again. I seemed to follow the same pattern as my dad who was also married and divorced several times. We often do what we grow up seeing, don’t we? I can say that I have forgiven and I love my family. We are all on our own journey and I cannot hold anything against anyone when I too myself have struggled.
It was 2009. I was in a bad shape. In 2007 I had an abortion and it was haunting me. The pain and torment of it was horrific. At the time I justified it because I wanted to go to graduate school and be this famous writer, blah blah. Oh it was terribly stupid. I’m thankful to God that He is a forgiving and loving God. (Come now, and let us reason together, saith the Lord:though your sins be as scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they be red like crimson, they shall be as wool. Isaiah 1:18 Authorized (King James) Version (AKJV)
It was just another terrible sin, the sin of murder and I added it to a very long list. What had happened to me? Why was I doing these things? I knew they were wrong and yet I kept doing them. It was like running into a brick wall over and over again. Very painful but yet I kept hitting it.
I was in a terrible fog. That’s what it felt like. A fog I could not see out of. It literally hung over me like a dark heavy blanket. It was a very physical feeling. I spent a short time in a mental hospital because of severe anxiety and the nagging notion in my head that would not go away, “you should just kill yourself, look at you and what you have done.” It was demonic spirits talking to me every day, all day. At the time I didn’t know it but later on I’ll explain how I did come to know it. (Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour: 1 Peter 5:8 Authorized (King James) Version)
One night, I was lying in bed. I was literally at my wits-end. I knew about God. I had known the whole time! But what is knowing? Worthless really. I thought I could live my own life and safely believe in Him from a distance. The devil had fooled me into thinking that. That was the stupidest thought and action of my life.
I cried out to Him that night. I mean, I cried out! “Help me Jesus, please. I know YOU can help me. Nothing else can.” Desperate, dying, sick and almost ready to end it and get it over with. I knew as I cried out that He was real and He could hear me.
He had heard me all those years ago when I was 10. He could see me years ahead at age 29, lying on that bed, crying and dying.
But there I was that day, when I was 10 years old, standing there, looking up into the sun and asking Him if He was really there. He saw it all. He knew. He could have said, well she’s going to mess up for years here on out, I just won’t answer her…why waste my time with her?
But He didn’t. And He wouldn’t! He knew all along and He still saved me. It reminds me of the scripture, while we were yet sinners Christ died for us. (Romans 5:8) He didn’t wait until we tried real hard, got cleaned up and presented ourselves like good children. He died there in agony on that cross for us when are in the worst shape, nasty, grimy sinners that NOBODY ELSE would ever think of helping. That’s God’s love. Amazing and difficult to believe sometimes that a perfect God, creator of Heaven and Earth and all that is, was and ever will be, actually loves…us? Yes! He does! Believe it!
I went to sleep that night and woke up the next morning and the dark fog hanging over me was gone. There was a noticeable difference and I was in shock for weeks afterwards on how things were so different. I started to read my Bible. I got up enough courage to go to church. But I struggled with my past sins. I felt horrible still. I was free from the loneliness, sickness and agony but the past sins were haunting me. One night I heard the Lord Jesus say in my mind, “isn’t my blood good enough for you?”
Oh. That hit straight to the heart and I felt terrible. I had never thought of that before. The last thing I wanted to do was insult Jesus and what He did on the cross for me (and you!). I told Him I was very sorry about that and asked Him to help me with it.
A dramatic change happened. And then all Hell broke loose literally. I was having supernatural things happening in the house and then one night I saw a dark figure outside my window standing in the lamplight, and the street light couldn’t even penetrate this darkness! I thought, what in the heck is going on. Then one day as I was driving down the road, I heard a preacher say on the radio. And I’ll paraphrase. “Sometimes, you will be walking down the road and everything is going just fine and dandy. And you’re doing what you want and the sun is shining, even though you know what you’re doing isn’t good. And then when you stop by the grace of God and turn (repent) from your sins and claim the work of Jesus at the cross for you, (salvation) you are now going in a different direction. And guess who you come face to face with….the devil. He don’t like you anymore (of course he never did, the lies about freedom to sin and who cares were setting you on the path to eternal hell, he hates you with a passion) and now he’s going to put up a fight. He doesn’t not want you going any other direction than with him!
And yes that’s pretty much what happened. The Lord Jesus was with me even when all that stuff was going on. He taught me a lot from it and He is always with me. He will always be with you if you choose it. And there are still battles. The supernatural isn’t just a TV show. It’s a reality. I don’t believe you should get obsessed with it either, that could be very dangerous but just be aware what you can’t see is still there. But so are the Holy angels. (I have more testimony about them on the way!) God’s angels are His and they are sent to do his work not ours. Anyone telling you that you can control your angels or get readings from them, don’t walk, run from them! Those are the fallen angels, they are referring to, a.k.a demons, spirit beings that their main mission is to lie to you in your ears and cause terrible trouble for you.
My walk with God hasn’t been perfect. I’m still learning but I lean on Jesus instead of my own knowledge or understanding and He guides me. I’ve had stumbling more than I would care to admit. However, I will freely admit it anytime because God has helped me every time I’ve asked– so all glory, every bit goes to God! (For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.Romans 10:13 AKJV)
God has been showing me His wonderful Word. The sword of the Spirit. I can’t stress this enough…read and feed! I recently had a dream regarding this and will post it on another page under “Dreams.” I will share some of them as God leads me, only for His glory and for helping others. God is not a respecter of persons, and what He has done for me, He will do for you. Please remember that.
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*Remember this if you remember anything from this testimony at all.
God loves you, He always has and always will.
He’s got a lot to show you regarding your life, the world and the next one to come.
If you want to be saved right now, just believe in your heart that Jesus died for your sins, was dead and buried and is alive right now at the right hand of GOD the Father. If you have faith the size of a mustard seed, Jesus said you can move mountains! (And Jesus said unto them, because of your unbelief: for verily I say unto you, If ye have faith as a grain of mustard seed, ye shall say unto this mountain, Remove hence to yonder place and it shall remove and nothing shall be impossible unto you. Matthew 17:20 AKJV)
To be saved, you must believe in your heart and confess it with your mouth. Tell someone. You can email us if you would like at firstname.lastname@example.org.
That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised Him from the dead, thou shalt be saved, for with the heart man believeth unto righteousness and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation. -Romans 10:9-10 AKJV
I want to pray with you right now. Below I’ve typed this and believe in faith that whoever prays right now, I agree with them in Jesus’ name. Time and distance is not a factor in God’s kingdom. Please email us if you need specific prayer we’d love to put your name on a permanent prayer list and help you any way else we can!
Dear Father in Heaven, Watch over this person while they pray and read. Help them Lord Jesus. Pour forth Your light into their hearts. Open their eyes so they can see and their ears so they can hear. I ask that You save them, deliver them, strengthen their faith, guide them and protect them. And bless them with the gift of the Holy Spirit. Please fill them now. Surround them with Your Holy angels and send them with them wherever they go. I ask all of this in Jesus’ mighty precious Name. Thank You Father for hearing and seeing this prayer. Thank You Lord that You will it that no one should perish. All praise and glory to YOU forever and ever!
“But as for me, my prayer is unto thee, O Lord, in an acceptable time: O God, in the multitude of thy mercy hear me, in the truth of thy salvation.” Psalm 69:13 In Jesus’ name, amen.
-Shelly Lynn, souls4Jesus: an end-times harvest ministry
11:11 a.m. Friday, February 28, 2014
LIFT UP YOUR HEADS OH YE GATES AND BE YE LIFTED UP YE EVERLASTING DOORS AND THE KING OF GLORY SHALL COME IN. WHO IS THIS KING OF GLORY? THE LORD STRONG AND MIGHTY. THE LORD MIGHTY IN BATTLE. LIFT UP YOUR HEADS OH YE GATES, EVEN LIFT THEM UP YE EVERLASTING DOORS AND THE KING OF GLORY SHALL COME IN. WHO IS THIS KING OF GLORY. THE LORD OF HOSTS, HE IS THE KING OF GLORY, SELAH. ( Psalm 24:7-10)
MARANATHA, COME LORD JESUS!
AND HE’S COMING….SOON. AMEN